I feel different today. After all this time I feel at peace with my life, my future, my choices. It's been so long since I have felt like this. I feel like doing the right thing. I feel like being responsible, being an adult. I don't feel sorry for myself. I don't feel like everyone has a better life than me. I don't feel like life has dealt me a bad hand. Not anymore.
I owe this all to her. I owe her everything and I think I'm good for it. She may ask for the moon. I will give it to her. She will want faithfulness, communication, compliments and kisses. She will ask for strength. She will ask me to be the father of her future children. She will ask that I try my best, to make her proud, to turn her on, to comfort her. I will not fail.
She will ask for freedom within the chains of commitment. She will ask that I be her best friend, her lover, her father and her husband. She will ask so much of me. Can I give it, will I fail?
I feel different today. I will not fail.