Sunday, December 6, 2009

Without Reason

They say 'Write what you know'. But I feel like every time I sit down to write something, I know nothing. Well, that isn't completely true. I know a few things but nothing that would interest anyone. I think the phrase 'Write what you know' should be changed to 'Write what you are passionate about'. And if this were a true statement then I suppose it makes since that I have little to write about.

So, I ask myself, 'Self, how do I change such an unfortunate situation' that being lack of passion thus lack of writing topics?

Experience? My first real fantasy of becoming a published writer sticks out in my mind even to this day. I was in junior highschool and had just written a five page story about a man exploring an old pirate ship not unlike the one in the 'Goonies' movie. I was proud of it and when I read it outloud many of the students complimented my work. Now that I think about it there have been only a handful of times in my life that I had a captive audience when reading something I had written.

Anyhow, my point in this was that in those days I had passion, bad grammer skills, lack of any indepth vocabulary, a feable grasp of plot and motivation; BUT PASSION NONE-THE-LESS! Now. Now I'm older, smarter, wiser. I have read all the books about plot, description, characters, protagonists and antagonists and settings and themes and on and on... yet the most important ingredient got lost somewhere along the way.

True writers never grow up, I believe. True writers can take imagination along with the pain, heartache and dissapointment of adulthood, bundle it up and light it on fire with passion that makes us unable to stop turning pages. Then, they proceed to spill it all out onto paper/ wordprosessors/ blogs. Blood, guts and glory!

I am aware that alot of my posts on this site are rather depressing and I'm sure you have enough black days to have no desire to wallow in mine, so I have decided to end this post on a happy note. I have decided, in the short time it took me to write this, that I would try to find that passion again. No! I will find that passion again. The child and the man shall merge and 'on my life' I will spill blood and ink and craft a masterpiece (or at least something marketable).

Thank you.

-Nosmo (writer in flux)